Ok, this post is super emotional for me because I CUT ALL OF MY HAIR. Yes! I did the big chop! Now, some may say I am being overly dramatic but I do not think I am. I’ll run you through a history of my hair first.
- I have always had really really full and thick hair (legit every hair stylist absolutely disliked doing my hair because it would take them ages!) but length is something I always struggled with.
- I have been relaxing my hair for as long as I can remember.
- My hair was stagnant and never grew past a certain point.
- I always held on to length for dear life LOL so, that meant I was always very adamant to get a trim even if my ends were crying for it.
- I did not know how to take care of my hair point. blank. period.
In May 2013, I had been without a relaxer/perm for approximately a year (May 2012 – May 2013) and I felt there was no point holding on to my hair as it was totally damaged at this point. So, I took the plunge and I cut all my relaxed hair completely off; I did the big chop. I felt liberated as you’d expect. It felt like a huge weight had been lifted off and I immediately became a product junkie. It was like a new life had begun and I was excited about it but that lasted only for so long!
About 6 months in, I got really impatient because there was no significant growth, I started to really want a relaxer but I also wanted to wait it out desperately. My hair was not easy to manage, I felt like there was no progress so 5 months later, graduation was coming along and my mind was set on “this pictures will last a lifetime, I need my edges and leave out to be SNATCHED!” My confidence level was on legit 0. I did not know how to wear my “natural” hair (I know, crazy!) There was no turning back, I had convinced myself that I had to get a relaxer. So, April 2014… I got a relaxer, my leave out was perf and I was happy! 🙂
I embarked on this “relaxed” hair journey and within a year, it was fulfilling. My hair was the longest it had ever been in life. I started to feel like the potential my hair always had was starting to take form. I was obsessed. I cut out heat completely, I sealed my hair every night, I took my treatments seriously, I did not comb unnecessarily, I stuck with closures and wigs the entire time. My hair had flourished and I was elated.
In April 2016, exactly 2 years after my first relaxer post big chop, I started to itch to go back on the natural hair journey. It was an everyday battle, I was constantly thinking about pros and cons. It was exhausting! In the summer of 2016, I ended up getting what I know now to be my FINAL relaxer. I absolutely could not stand my limp hair. I craved volume. I wanted natural hair for myself and my health.
Transitioning months were absolutely difficult, my hair broke like crazy, it was appalling. It made me sad each wash day. I could not take it anymore so, after 6 months of transitioning (June 2016 – December 2016), I chopped it all off in January 2017! Oh gosh, it was not easy but I have to look at the bigger picture and it is hair. Hair will ALWAYS grow as long as you have breath.
So far, I am confident in my decision and happy about it too. I cannot wait to fully settle into this journey and learn more about my hair! Also, one thing I absolutely love about natural hair is how diverse it is. I can get a blow out and BOOM! It’s straight hair all over again!
Any advise and comments on natural hair are all welcome! Cannot wait to hear from you!
Thank you for reading!
Love & Light,